Deep Calls to Deep

Deep calls unto deep at the noise of Your waterfalls; all Your waves and billows have gone over me

Psalm 42:7

There's an overwhelming desire for the deep within me, to commune with the deep that is God. He calls me. My whole being begs for Him.

The bottomless deep, full of Love and acceptance. Wisdom and worship.

It feels like a hunger that is never satisfied and keeps asking for more, more, more. I'm like a child with food insecurity, always begging.

Except here, I know there's security.

The unquenchable thirst.

I don't really know what I'm begging for. I read the Old Testament and I'm jealous of the ones who walked and talked with God. Can you imagine? It seems they weren't very shocked, It was a natural part of their life. Moses was definitely surprised, I guess a voice coming from a burning bush wasn't an everyday occurrence. Abraham just flowed with it. Noah was obedient. Job had his comeuppance for sure. Samuel, Elijah, Enoch, David.

And women.

Hagar who named him "El Roi, The God Who Sees Me."

Deborah, a prophetess.

Hannah, who's desperate longing for a child was answered in the form of Samuel, who would also hear God's voice.

Esther and Ruth. Women who heard and listened to God. Women who responded in obedience.

And the New Testament people who got to hang out and live with Jesus. Can you imagine?? I'd never stop asking questions. He was there when God said, "Let there Be Light."

It's as if the part of me that woke up, can't settle. Not in a bad way, but in an excited, I can't get over this, kind of way. And I want to WORSHIP.

Worship- the feeling or expression of reverence and adoration for a deity. -Oxford dictionary

Worship- to honor or show reverence for as a divine being or supernatural power. -Merriam-Webster

Where are you worshipers? I feel like(and this will be offensive to some) that most churches just don't worship anymore. That laser light shows and coffee shops, merch and fashion and activities have taken over. Now this is my experience so I'm sure (I hope) I'm wrong and that there are many churches who still worship God as intended. But please, WHERE do I find them? I don't care who's there or what they are wearing. I only want to sit with them. Learn and talk. I don't need bells and whistles. I don't want performance, not from myself or anyone else.

Or is worship something that I'm supposed to do on my own? By myself. I do that but still something in me is longing to find others who are on the same journey. I know there are many. As it stands, I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. I pray God will guide me.

Psalm 95:6 "Oh let us worship and bow down; let us kneel before the Lord our Maker."

John 4:23 "But the hour is coming and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in Spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him."

Revelation 14:7 "Fear God and give glory to Him, for the hour of his judgment has come; and worship him who made heaven and earth, the sea and springs of water."